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ENOUGH IS ENOUGH ! LETS STOP TALKING AND ACT DECISIVELY !!

Again the same story .... Bomb blast, loss of innocent lives ! 100,20,30,50 ...so on !

Again the same old speeches by UPA ministers and Opposition leaders !! Condemn, condemn and condemn ........no action .... !!!!!!!!!!!!

Again the same old rhetoric without punch !!! Blah,blah,blah ....xckxlxvlibvsicgbs;clk.

Again the same headlines to be forgotten in a weeks time till a new event unfolds and shakes our existence !!!! New headlines ....new topic of day.

Why are we that we are ? Meek, submissive, spineless.

Why we think it has happened to others and not to me ?? Tomorrow you or your kin may be the victim.

Why we allow our government and representatives to hide behind security while exposing innocent citizens to Bombs and bullets ? Let them withdraw the cover and be exposed as common men are.

Why we Indians are so divided in our opinions that issues of national interests and Security we are only trying to pull each other rather uniting to tackle the common enemy ? Terrorism, Hunger, Poverty, Illiteracy.

Why we do not learn lessions from past ? Bombay, Baroda, Ahmedabad,Bangalore,Delhi, Varanasi so on so forth !

Why can't we invest in CCTV and install in every city of India ?? Thousands of crores of public money is squandered and looted without trace !

Why can't we tell so called biased and one sided human rights champion to go put up a protest against terror strikes, fight cases of innocent lives against organisations and countries surreptiously supporting terrorism ??? What is wrong in bullet for bullet policy. Isn't killing by terrorists also violation of human rights ???

Why can't we Indians stand up and tell our leaders cutting across all party lines and religious affairs ..........STOP ! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH !!!

If you can't protect and preserve innocent lives then get aside and let a capable person take over ......

I mourn loss of innocent lives.

Sincerely

sanjaoy

UK TRIP 19 AUGUST -23 AUGUST !

Business Travels ouside country are not exactly the kind of break from routine I aspire for !

Primarily because one hardly get leisure time to browse the foreign country and feel with it, in thoughts,visuals and understanding. Its more like a movie in a foreign language with no sub titles to understand whats going on except what your mind can understand visualising it.

Last moment preparation for journey left a few things unattended when I realised it inside the A-340 Airbus by Virgin Atlantic.

The scene on Indira Gandhi International Airport airport was a definite improvement what it was when I travelled last summer to Spain. After haggling with Vigin Atlantic ticketing clerk for window seat I realised that being a single person traveller is a definite disadvantage as they deliberately keep all odd and uncomfortable seats marked specially for single customers. I had to fight it out to get the window seat. Another first I discovered was that Virgin Atlantic now charges a premium rates if you seek any emergency Exit seats ! My past experience was that they struggled to make the people sit on emergency exit. How mean the airlines have become in its effort to earn a little extra money. I refused to pay extra and settled for window seat a little behind.

Landing at London Heathrow was a routine and Airport looked a shade more ancient and worn down both outside and inside than it was a year ago. But the fantastic view was from the aircraft when I can see at least 6-7 aircrafts in distant view back to back approaching the landing ! Despite all these I like london immensely and this has been one of the numerous trips I made to this lively city past 10 years.

I had to go to Coventry which was one and Half hours away from central London. Took a Heathrow Express to Paddington then a Taxi to Euston and finally caught a Virgin Train to Coventry.

Two hours journey and into the hotel. I calculated I was travelling non stop for 17 hours when I left home on a taxi to IGI airport and thereafter ! Air travelling is not so easy as many thinks. It really drains the energy specially if you are economy traveller.

For next three days it was only official engagements, meeting buyers at Sainsbury TU office which I wont discuss.

Coventry as a city looked quiet, deserted and in time warp. It was not vibrant city as I had expected but the serenity and peace seemed to have pervaded the air. Perfect foil for a retired life ! I wished if I had enough money I would select any such city away from din and dust where one can be the self expressed and self impressed with cosmic communion.

Two more towns Leicester & Warwick two good restaurants discovered, Nandos and Five rivers !

The return journey was eventful. Train to Euston from Coventry was first delayed !?! and then Cancelled !!???!!! Wow thats India for you in UK ! Now I know it happens not only in India !!
I had to run for life to get to next platform to catch another train to London .....making it overcrowded like we have in India, travelling on footboard ! Crazy !!!

Reaching Heathrow the things started to settle down of course again after usual quota of Haggling with Virgin Atlantic for seat and luggage weight. Will try to avoid this airline in future though I have used it in dozen trips !

Nothing more to add since this time I spent most time in viewing movies while in air so no time to ruminate except thinking about my family as I missed them quite badly this time.

Lovingly

Sanjaoy

Pages from memories !

Yesterday I was going through my dairy which I stopped writing many years ago and slipped into down the memory lane.

I forgot that I used to write so much poetry during my school and college days and the din and push of life survival race had effectively sealed my creativity and creative energy.

When I re-read it I could not believe this was written by me.....almost ages and unpublished.

I am putting it on record as a copyright piece of intellectual property and hope you will enjoy it.

This was written by me in Dusseldorf, Germany when I went there to meet my Aunt and my cousins after a longtime of seperation from each other. It was one of the most memorable and lovliest moments of life which was spent with my Aunt Mary who is a german and her motherly indulgence to me had been something I will treasure till end. My 30 days spent with my Aunt, cousin Usha, Damian were like gift of god ! I can write a book on my experiences in those days. Now I know what it is like when two families meet after a gap of decades. We just kept writing letters to each other as at that time means of communication were not so developed as it is now. So when I reached her home and she shown me amount of letters I wrote to her I was surprised ! Hundreds of them all kept in a safe manner thoughts and contents looked fresh yet letters looked a little antique but well preserved. 

So I find my poems ........

Written on 27.12.1988

Titled : Pilgrimage


On a pilgrimage -
as ever
I'm here,
to live an image !

The image -
that was always within me,
lovely, beautiful !
at times
lonely images !
Crowded, confused
and
innocent images !!

Among
colour,variation and contours
nothing
like an eternal expectation
of
deprived.

Along
the hustle, bustle
and pompous chores !
comparable to
a
stolen
step contrieved.

From
the images -
pain and sorrow,
towards
the images -
pleasure and joy !
How wonderful
would it been,
if
either had shared -
the images I seen !!

A world awaiting miracles !
Look !
everything's around you !!
and,
it is among the images,
you -
find a cosmic clue !!!


This is not my first poetry , I have more than 80 poems and all unpublished.

More next time......till then

ciao ! take care !!

Sanjaoy

The Wonder that life is !

Life is a journey...some forgettable some unforgettable !

Its a constant mental struggle, whenever mind is free, as to what I really want out this life ! Some say it is too late top ask this question and some say it is never too late !

I did not ask this question when I started or charted an independent lifepath after being so beautifully/caringly nurtured by my indulgent parent. They were not fired by imagination as modern day parent are so were always very protective and low profile which were unfortunately not transmitted on to me in full hence I always aspired to be on a little visible side of my personae. I did not attempt to be high profile yet the desire simmered within me, sometimes turbulent sometimes tranquill but never extinct. The struggle goes on ......its like I want to have cake and eat it too ! Meaning I want to rise on top of lifes ladder still do not want to do it at a cost which are so dear and inescapable from me.

Sometimes I feel , is it only me who think like this or a large number of people goes through this turbulance ! A mid life crisis !?! It will be really interesting if I get to know more views about it.

I know many people who go this way or the other and are prepared to sacrifice or lose many things to achieve something. I wonder how they do it !!

I have so much expectation from life, people, time and space and I find the material both animate and inanimate that makes the rainbow fabric of life that we wear around us so fascinating that sometimes I wonder what am I doing ? I mean you look every where you will find so much meaning that is happening or not happening. So much things still to be done, so much things still to be seen !

During my life saw many dreams, killed many dreams, created many dreams, realised many dreams still the fountain of dream does not look like fading. It gives a positive energy to push the individual limitation to a notch higher. But where will this end ? Danger here is that while positive energy should be used as means to an end it becomes end in itself and we get trap in circles of effort and energy therby losing the basic values and emotions of life.

'Happiness is state of mind' and I fully agree to this dictum which really balances my desires and possible.

So what I want out of life is tempered with what our almighty has charted a path for us. So 'karmanya vadhikar aste maa falesu kadachan.....' ( Meaning perform your duty diligently, honestly.....without expectation of fruits of effort ! ) And that brings the whole meaning of my question I started with, turning it on its head !

To end this discussion which is speculatory in nature I have a very favourite line said by John Lennon :

"Life is what happens to you while you are busy making other plan."

Period !

More next time !

I love you all !

Sanjaoy

Old world charms !

Being alone and lonely can be really energising if we put that state and stage to positive thoughts !

Whenever I travel to overseas destinations I normally miss my family, my routine chores and interactions. But it also gives me time and space to rethink and analyse my behaviour, my dealings, my handling of people and relationships whether as a son or father , brother, husband and friend. Many a times I have used such lonely moments to evaluate what I have been doing and what I ought to do or ought to have done. The best thought and ideas have always flashed in my mind when I am airborne thousands of feet up from ground when I feel so disconnected to what was happening at the groundlevel at the same time so well connected to people I love I care for. Life looks so fragile in vast expanse of time and space and at such a height you are bound to start valueing the smallest little things you did on our lovely planet.

This is the time for thinking deeply and loudly, imagining vividly and hearing silence !

And when I do this, most obscure things which we often dont see in our fight for survival comes to visible and I feel ...oh damn it , how come I could not feel, understand or relate things in perspective ?

This is a time not to be disappointed but seek new divine ideas to renew and re-engage, to correct thoughts and worldview. This is a time to realise how valuable is life and our near and dear ones !

We always have misplaced priorities in life. We trade material with sentiments, physical acquisition with emotional acquisition, perishable with eternal. To gain something we are mentally prepared to lose something. Many dreams, innumerable relationships in all forms, hope and faith have been killed because of mistakes or misplaced priorities of one or the other. By the time we realise wemademistakes it normally is too late to make amends. Thats why I often talk to myself and keep re-evaluating whenever I am alone and lonely physically but I compensate by being mentally crowded with thoughts !

One of the biggest question that has always haunted me is why success goes to head that forces fundamental changes in the outlook of person wearing it ? How we forget the very people who helped in your success ? How can you disown or feign ignorance about the people whom you grew with and took help in scripting your success ?? Innumerable such stories are abound in our society. It has happened in my life too !

Huge opportunities and advancement in life has killed old world charms and contentment. I remember my childhood when I was growing up I was so carefree and cared by my extended family members. Spending time with Uncles, aunts, grandparent, cousins, siblings, parent was a great entertainment and learning process and experience. I see my children growing up in a home of four people, me and my wife what we proudly call nuclear family to escape and evade the reality and reality is that extended family system of yore were much more attractive, useful and solid. I often miss my extended family and times spent with them.

What should I do now ?

Well, as I told you that I often use such monents of rumination and recollection in a positive way and had resolved that no success or acquisition is greater than love, respect , smile & gratutute, compassion , care and spiritual and emotional contentment. Family, friends and relatives are the biggest asset I have. If they are happy with me then they mirror me back my happiness.

More next time and till then its bye bye !

thoughtfully

sanjaoy

Silence of lambs ........

6th August is the blackest day in entire human history when a whole city and a few generations were exterminated in a flash of light which was the first tryst with weapon of mass destruction.

What was the fault of innocent citizen of Hiroshima ? Except that they happened to be in a country whose political masters spun the web of war.

I still wonder what was the necessity of Dropping Atomic Bomb to end the war which was in any case nearing the end ? Was it the case of use of excessive powers to achieve stated goals ? In my view it was one of the most horrible decisions ever taken in entire human history but nobody has questioned this the way it should have been. 6th August do remind us the futility of conflict and strife on a human scale. Why are we sometimes so bad ?


This is how this event has been described by US department of energy website which looks like eulogising the achievement. Read this excerpts ...

" In the early morning hours of August 6, 1945, a B-29 bomber named Enola Gay took off from the island of Tinian and headed north by northwest toward Japan. The bomber's primary target was the city of Hiroshima, located on the deltas of southwestern Honshu Island facing the Inland Sea. Hiroshima had a civilian population of almost 300,000 and was an important military center, containing about 43,000 soldiers.
The bomber, piloted by the commander of the 509th Composite Group, Colonel Paul Tibbets, flew at low altitude on automatic pilot before climbing to 31,000 feet as it neared the target area. At approximately 8:15 a.m. Hiroshima time the Enola Gay released "Little Boy," its 9,700-pound uranium bomb, over the city. Tibbets immediately dove away to avoid the anticipated shock wave. Forty-three seconds later, a huge explosion lit the morning sky as Little Boy detonated 1,900 feet above the city, directly over a parade field where soldiers of the Japanese Second Army were doing calisthenics. Though already eleven and a half miles away, the Enola Gay was rocked by the blast. At first, Tibbets thought he was taking flak. After a second shock wave (reflected from the ground) hit the plane, the crew looked back at Hiroshima. "The city was hidden by that awful cloud . . . boiling up, mushrooming, terrible and incredibly tall," Tibbets recalled. The yield of the explosion was later estimated at 15 kilotons (the equivalent of 15,000 tons of TNT).
On the ground moments before the blast it was a calm and sunny Monday morning. An air raid alert from earlier that morning had been called off after only a solitary aircraft was seen (the weather plane), and by 8:15 the city was alive with activity -- soldiers doing their morning calisthenics, commuters on foot or on bicycles, groups of women and children working outside to clear firebreaks. Those closest to the explosion died instantly, their bodies turned to black char. Nearby birds burst into flames in mid-air, and dry, combustible materials such as paper instantly ignited as far away as 6,400 feet from ground zero. The white light acted as a giant flashbulb, burning the dark patterns of clothing onto skin (right) and the shadows of bodies onto walls. Survivors outdoors close to the blast generally describe a literally blinding light combined with a sudden and overwhelming wave of heat. (The effects of radiation are usually not immediately apparent.) The blast wave followed almost instantly for those close-in, often knocking them from their feet. Those that were indoors were usually spared the flash burns, but flying glass from broken windows filled most rooms, and all but the very strongest structures collapsed. One boy was blown through the windows of his house and across the street as the house collapsed behind him. Within minutes 9 out of 10 people half a mile or less from ground zero were dead.
People farther from the point of detonation experienced first the flash and heat, followed seconds later by a deafening boom and the blast wave. Nearly every structure within one mile of ground zero was destroyed, and almost every building within three miles was damaged. Less than 10 percent of the buildings in the city survived without any damage, and the blast wave shattered glass in suburbs twelve miles away. The most common first reaction of those that were indoors even miles from ground zero was that their building had just suffered a direct hit by a bomb. Small ad hoc rescue parties soon began to operate, but roughly half of the city's population was dead or injured. In those areas most seriously affected virtually no one escaped serious injury. The numerous small fires that erupted simultaneously all around the city soon merged into one large firestorm, creating extremely strong winds that blew towards the center of the fire. The firestorm eventually engulfed 4.4 square miles of the city, killing anyone who had not escaped in the first minutes after the attack. One postwar study of the victims of Hiroshima found that less than 4.5 percent of survivors suffered leg fractures. Such injuries were not uncommon; it was just that most who could not walk were engulfed by the firestorm.
Even after the flames had subsided, relief from the outside was slow in coming. For hours after the attack the Japanese government did not even know for sure what had happened. Radio and telegraph communications with Hiroshima had suddenly ended at 8:16 a.m., and vague reports of some sort of large explosion had begun to filter in, but the Japanese high command knew that no large-scale air raid had taken place over the city and that there were no large stores of explosives there. Eventually a Japanese staff officer was dispatched by plane to survey the city from overhead, and while he was still nearly 100 miles away from the city he began to report on a huge cloud of smoke that hung over it. The first confirmation of exactly what had happened came only sixteen hours later with the announcement of the bombing by the United States. Relief workers from outside the city eventually began to arrive and the situation stabilized somewhat. Power in undamaged areas of the city was even restored on August 7th, with limited rail service resuming the following day. Several days after the blast, however, medical staff began to recognize the first symptoms of radiation sickness among the survivors. Soon the death rate actually began to climb again as patients who had appeared to be recovering began suffering from this strange new illness. Deaths from radiation sickness did not peak until three to four weeks after the attacks and did not taper off until seven to eight weeks after the attack. Long-range health dangers associated with radiation exposure, such as an increased danger of cancer, would linger for the rest of the victims' lives, as would the psychological effects of the attack.
No one will ever know for certain how many died as a result of the attack on Hiroshima. Some 70,000 people probably died as a result of initial blast, heat, and radiation effects. This included about twenty American airmen being held as prisoners in the city. By the end of 1945, because of the lingering effects of radioactive fallout and other after effects, the Hiroshima death toll was probably over 100,000. The five-year death total may have reached or even exceeded 200,000, as cancer and other long-term effects took hold. "


Like every year this year also governments all over the world will remember superficially those killed , renew pledge to eradicate weapons of mass destruction, same old notes and statements and thats it.

Today world is increasingly becoming a dangerous place with stockpiles of nuclear weapons across globe and many countries racing to get their hands to a weapon which should never be used ! so why have it ??

Lets remember those unknown people who were exterminated or died thereafter due to radiation and resolve that we will do everything we can to make our world free from nuclear weapons and weapons of mass destruction.

With warm regards to all !

Sanjaoy

Middle Class dreams gone bust !

Ironic or alarming as it might sound the fact of matter is that poor and middle class sections in India is deeply distressed and angry which is certain to turn the applecart of UPA in next hustings !

The much hyped growth rate is stunted and on reverse gear, prices of essential commodities, rising interest rate have really put a big hole in the pocket. Right now everybody is shocked and not understanding how a dream has run sour in such a short span. As the time passes and we come closer to the next General election the muted sound of people are going to convert into shriek and scream and then hell will break loose which is going to uproot the present government.

If in next 6 months things does not improve substantially I bet UPA government is going to pay heavily and lose power.

The powers that be is not understanding the depth of feeling of alienation from present government on price rise and when this tsunami hits them they will themselves to be blamed.

Its a wake up call for Manmohan Singh Government !

Lovingly yours

Sanjaoy

Friendship day !

Hi Folks !

I am among those category of people who were condemned to be dinosaurs but somehow escaped the agony of being labelled so !

Honestly I was grossly unaware about these premium fancy date like friendship day, Father's day , mother's day, valentines day. I used to vaguely hear these words during my schooldays but never understood the significance that is attached to the special day. In colleges I thought for any good deeds any day is good day to effectively express it. We had a lot of time then to do it repeatedly but gradually as I got into the rut of rat race in the name of being achiever I found to my dismay that I had to really struggle to remember my expression of gratitude and love for people who mattered in my life.

These Special days have come as a sort of reminder to people like me to realise how we have been removed and cut off from old world charms where expression of love and gratitude was bestowed at the drop of hat without waiting or reminded about it on a particular day !

But now I am a modern man who can pick a day to express the sentiments, pick a day to pay gratitude , pick a day to bestow love and affection to people who actually deserved constant and non stop indulgence to their existance !

Happy friendship day my dear friends !!

Lovingly

Sanjaoy