The Wonder that life is !

Life is a journey...some forgettable some unforgettable !

Its a constant mental struggle, whenever mind is free, as to what I really want out this life ! Some say it is too late top ask this question and some say it is never too late !

I did not ask this question when I started or charted an independent lifepath after being so beautifully/caringly nurtured by my indulgent parent. They were not fired by imagination as modern day parent are so were always very protective and low profile which were unfortunately not transmitted on to me in full hence I always aspired to be on a little visible side of my personae. I did not attempt to be high profile yet the desire simmered within me, sometimes turbulent sometimes tranquill but never extinct. The struggle goes on ......its like I want to have cake and eat it too ! Meaning I want to rise on top of lifes ladder still do not want to do it at a cost which are so dear and inescapable from me.

Sometimes I feel , is it only me who think like this or a large number of people goes through this turbulance ! A mid life crisis !?! It will be really interesting if I get to know more views about it.

I know many people who go this way or the other and are prepared to sacrifice or lose many things to achieve something. I wonder how they do it !!

I have so much expectation from life, people, time and space and I find the material both animate and inanimate that makes the rainbow fabric of life that we wear around us so fascinating that sometimes I wonder what am I doing ? I mean you look every where you will find so much meaning that is happening or not happening. So much things still to be done, so much things still to be seen !

During my life saw many dreams, killed many dreams, created many dreams, realised many dreams still the fountain of dream does not look like fading. It gives a positive energy to push the individual limitation to a notch higher. But where will this end ? Danger here is that while positive energy should be used as means to an end it becomes end in itself and we get trap in circles of effort and energy therby losing the basic values and emotions of life.

'Happiness is state of mind' and I fully agree to this dictum which really balances my desires and possible.

So what I want out of life is tempered with what our almighty has charted a path for us. So 'karmanya vadhikar aste maa falesu kadachan.....' ( Meaning perform your duty diligently, honestly.....without expectation of fruits of effort ! ) And that brings the whole meaning of my question I started with, turning it on its head !

To end this discussion which is speculatory in nature I have a very favourite line said by John Lennon :

"Life is what happens to you while you are busy making other plan."

Period !

More next time !

I love you all !

Sanjaoy